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hope everyone enjoyed new year...^^ Happy new year everyone...Although its a veri tough new year for me...i will pull through and be happie ^^ ....Exams arnd the corner...everyone must jia you worx!!~~...

Charms: hope you enjoyed ur chinese new year 2...^^ Received 398 arhx..more than me seh...hmmm...hope u never do anything hanky panky yesterday...hahahas...jkjk....anywae...take care larhx...and study hard hard to be the future best reporter...Dont always gamble okies!!~~ I yesterday won 60 and lost them all sial...sad huhs...hahhas...all the best for the new year...smile=]

Paul Frank zaman : whey...i wont disturb her anymore...i will learn to let her go de...^^ sorrie for creating such a scene at her blog...and rest assure...those 2 girls arent my friend..^^ Stay happie and funky yars...Happie new year...

ALl my class pips'...YOYO...Happy new year...~~Remember to smile everyone!Hope u all get alot of ang baos...take care and bearbear out~

what should i realli do?
Should i continue loving you?
Or should i stop?
My mind is so confused now...
ur heart and mind is a mystery...
Ur eyes used to tell me how much u love me..
but i cant see a single things in ur eyes anymore...
Loving u seems to be a easy thing...
Loving u in the dark is so hard...
We use to smile and laugh together everyday...
We use to hold each other hands...
We used to tell each other the truth...
But all these are just a part of a fairytale...
a sad fairytale..
i deeply regret all my actions now...
but no one would forgive me...
not even you...
whenever i am close in reaching you...
u walk furthur and furthur away from me...
everytime i wanna let you go...
But i just cant bear to do it...
the fairytale we once had were just dreams...
u were always not serious abt helping me overcome things...
i was always veri serious when u were sad or couldnt overcome thing...
i dont know larhx..
maybe we are not even fated to be friends now...
or maybe its jus wat i deserved

My heart hurt lke FUCK.!!!!

FUCK THIS DAMN BLOODY WORLD!

"FCCK IT...I DONT WANNA HAVE ANY CRUSHES ANYMORE"

So obvious lorx...

Charmaine.

You sae u can listen to others problem...
and make them happie...

but why cant u make me happie?

Am i realli something that u hate that much?

Its my problem not of ur concern?

Is he that important?

Am i just a piece of shit in ur eyes?

I may seem happie everyday...

But deep inside me...

I feel lke fuck...

i lock myself in the toilet everyday..

I cry and cry...

But do anyone care?

No.

its even more painful to find the truth myself...
Than u tell me the truth..
It fucking hurts...
When someone lies to me...
I treat u as my good friend...
I know i dont have a chance to be wif you again...
Why can u always tell carine and rellien things...
And not me?

Who do u want me to be?
Or do u just want me to walk walk far away?

U sae u lke me...
U sae u care for me...
But i dont feel them at all...

Are u just playing wif me?
Am i such a cheap toy.?

Things are so different now...
When u dont know whether he wanna be ur friend or not...
You think so much...
When Ur parents scolded me...
And i almost didnt wanna be ur friend..
U didnt give a damn..
I dont know how u feel towards him...
i dont know what u want...
I know i have no rights to stop u from anything
But this just how i feel...
I know you have a crush on him..
But whatever larhs..
U can deny it...
But there are so mani stuffs that can prove it...
But nvm..
I will slowly walk away..
Further and further away from you..
So you wont see my fucking face anymore...
So you will be veri happie...
Even as a simple friend now...
You still dont wanna share things wif me...
Ok maybe i just dont understand you...
Ok maybe i am just sensitive...
But now i just find out...
U are not the friend that i used to know before...
fuck it.

Not knowing how you feel everyday...
Tears rolling down my cheeks every night and dae...
I lurve you alotx...
Not being able to tell you these 3 words anymore nowadays...
Make me feel so sad and depressed...
I nvr regretted being in lurve wif you...
I nvr regretted crying for you...
All i want...
Is just to have another chance to be wif you...
I thought i could let you go..
But u are so beautfiul and lovely...
I cant take u off my mind...
I wanna tell you how much i love you...
regardless of whatever things...
But i am just scared of the truth...
I am willing to do anything for you...
But do u have any feelings for me?
I dont mind going into jail...
But will u wait for me?
I dont mind getting scolded...
But will you still be wif me?
All i want to know now..
Who is the one in ur heart...
Till den...
I Will know...
What i shall do..

So tired everyday
talking to you abt different issues...
Issues that make us so sad...
I will try to be happier frm todae..
A thousand apologies to you is not enf to make me forgive myself..
Everyone that u know are now trying to find problems wif me...
But Just because of these few people..doesnt mean the end of the world..
We will always be friends..
Friends that will nvr be apart...
My hopes for patching up wif u again is so small...
I am starting to worry...
How badly i just wanna tell you everyday...
I Love you..
But times are different now...
I can no longer call u mine...
I know i have been a jerk...
When i was with you...
U forgave me...
But not the others...
Life seems so difficult...
Everyday...I go into ur tag board
see those people calling me names...
Scolding my mother...
Its hurts me alot...
How badly i just wanna hit their face..
But nevertheless...
I wont give up on you...
Remember to concentrate more on your studies...
Must become the best reporter okies...
I will always be by you when u need my help...
When U need someone to hug...
When u need a shoulder to cry...
Or when u need a listening ear..
Be happie and smile always ^^
Ur smiles bring miracles...
~* forever 2gether^^ *~

Charms...u realli misunderstood me...I am not demanding anything from you...Charms...Pls pls pls....you really get the wrong idea....ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHX....WHY ARE THEY SO MANI STRESSFUL THINSG IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!??????? WHY CANT U JUST UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY!? WHY DOES EVERYONE LKE YOU AND START HATING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THIS BLOODY SHIT WORLD.!

Haix...29th january was the last day i ever hold u again....haix...are we realli gonna be frens for 2 years? Do you love me or u dont? I have so mani questions in my mind...But i cant find the questions nor the answers in my mind...i am so confused now...If you said...that you dont wanna be wif me as a stead...then whats the point of waiting for you? I wanna ask you all these questions...but u seem realli sad todae and i didnt wanna make u more sad....Haiz...I really wanna be wif you..but being a friend and a boyfriend is sucha big difference...but heys...I will try to get over it larhx...maybe u and i are just nvr fated to be together...

Todae went to play Maximum tune...Got first ranking in the 3rd map...wahhaa...now from the white prince...become the wangan prince...was happie...But couldnt smile....cause of yesterday...
was a nice dae...but sad and boring 2

Loving someone...
Who doesnt love me...
Seems to be sucha hard thing...
Will the puzzle of my heart ever be completed again?
Will the person i love so much come watch the stars wif me again?
Will i ever sing gui ji to her again?
Will i ever have the chance to sing Jian Dan Ai for her?
Will you ever hold my hands again?
Will you love me again?
Endless sleepless nights...
Tears all over my cheeks...
When will u ever pinch my cheeks again?
When will you ever hug me...?
When will i ever sae i love you again?
Learning songs everyday...
Hoping that i can sing to u again 2 years later...
U look so beautiful now...
But i nvr had a chance to see you in person again...
Will we ever be 2gether again?
Thats the biggest question in my heart everyday...
Holding u deep in my heart...
I will be waiting for you...
I will love you forever....
I will c u on tv everyday...
I will see that u become a reporter...
I will nvr give you up....
**-=[LurVeHuRtX]=-**
Memories of you and i can nvr be forgotten...